Mothers are there to take care of you. When we are little we run to our Mom's when we are hurt or just need to be the comfort of her closeness. I never thought that as an adult, I would come to rely on my Mom for this all over again. She dropped everything for me 4 years ago, when I receive the news that I had Stage 4 Pancreatic cancer. I never thought I would be so child-like again.....not being able to do the smallest thing for myself. I could bathe and use the bathroom, but that was about it. She would be there for me no matter how much of a jerk I was. She would always be there for me, not judging me but just loving me, as only a Mom could.
I remember when I first started my treatments. I had 4 months of really harsh ones. My Mom literally ran pushing me, in a wheelchair, to catch a flight. I felt so helpless, but she motivated on. That must be where I get my strength from...I know it is!
Know it is my turn to care for my Mom. However, her procedure was 1200 miles away. I feel helpless. Everything went well, but I still feel like I need to be there for her. She has done so much and given up so much for me. It brings me tears that someone can be that unselfish. I know that is what Mom's do. But Know that I feel better with each day and I have my family to Thank for that. Especially my Mom! For her unselfishness and unwavering love! I love you Mom! And Thank you for being such a wonderfully beautiful, unselfish woman. I am so proud to call you My Mom! <3 <3 <3
Just checking to make sure this is working. I had a wonderful morning. I went over to my Mom's and fixed her breakfast and coffee. My sister...Amy came over too. It was a great way to start the day!
Well, This is my first post since last summer. It has been a busy 8 or so months.... stiil getting treatment and this process has become just part of my life/ or what I consider part of my normality! Really, What is normal anyway! Everyone has there own sense of what is normal is...so this is mine.
These past few months have given me my independence back! But with this independence and introduction back to real life...there has been a lot of bumps in the road. Those bumps have given me some valuable lessons. The difference is that I am listening this time. Which makes all the difference in the world!!
I have so many things and people to be Thankful for......My family. My Mom, who has given up the past 3 years to take care of me. How do you ever repay or show the gratitude that is definately due?? I try to, but sometimes it seems to not be enough!! But Thank You Mom...for being the strong beautiful woman you are! You are my hero and I am so proud to have you as my mother!! My sisters and brother... I know that this has been a rough road, but you have definately made it much smoother for me!! My Dog, Baxter. You were my protector and best friend. You always kept a watchful eye on things, I love you bubba-doo and have missed you everyday since you had to go heaven! But I always feel you right by my side!!
I have met so many lovely people.....Thank you for your support and kind words!! My lovely Meg....You are my rock and the love you have shown me, it truly amazes me!! You put up with me and my moods at times, but still love me!! I love you so much and you an incredibly beautiful woman-- inside and out!!
Well, I definately needed to get all that out!!! Whewwww!! lol
I struggle at times with being around....while so many of my people are not! I continue my fight for them and always will!! You all are my heroes!! I love and miss you all!!
Welcome to Tuesday!! I enjoyed a great weekend!!! Visited with one my sisters-- Nat and my 2 nephews-- drew and Trever-- at breakfast!! And then enjoyed some of the Folk Festival! I like to stay busy..... especially in the summer. I really do not want summer to end, but I do enjoy the Fall in Maine.... there is a smell in the air and then the leaves changing colors. It is priceless!!!! I am looking for hiking partners???? There is a place in Maine that is called the "Grand Canyon of Maine". It is called Gulf Hagas and the pictures are just beautiful!! If you have a chance you should look it up!!! I want to do this before my return to CTCA on 9/13. I sometimes forget I have to go back for treatment, until the last week and then reality hits me again. But if I have to give up a week to live a pretty normal life..... then that is what I have to do and I am more than OK with that! As I have said before--- I am very blessed to be able to live a "normal" life for the most part!!! That is priceless to me!!!!!!!!!!! Getting ready to get some bloodwork done and then off to visit with another sis-- Amy and my niece Ava..... Ava has a birthday celebration this weekend-- she turns 3..... going on 16! LOL Having to get into an oral surgeon-- darn wisdom tooth is giving me problems! But they are hard to get into, at least within the month. Time to start yet another round of antibiotics.... Cant wait to have this thing taken out!!! But no worries -- just another bump in the road!!! Life is Good! :)