Posterous theme by Cory Watilo

thoughts for the day......

Mothers are there to take care of you.  When we are little we run to our Mom's when we are hurt or just need to be the comfort of her closeness.  I never thought that as an adult, I would come to rely on my Mom for this all over again.  She dropped everything for me 4 years ago, when I receive the news that I had Stage 4 Pancreatic cancer.  I never thought I would be so child-like again.....not being able to do the smallest thing for myself.  I could bathe and use the bathroom, but that was about it.  She would be there for me no matter how much of a jerk I was.  She would always be there for me, not judging me but just loving me, as only a Mom could. 

I remember when I first started my treatments.  I had 4 months of really harsh ones.  My Mom literally ran pushing me, in a wheelchair, to catch a flight.  I felt so helpless, but she motivated on.  That must be where I get my strength from...I know it is!

    Know it is my turn to care for my Mom.  However, her procedure was 1200 miles away.  I feel helpless.  Everything went well, but I still feel like I need to be there for her.  She has done so much and given up so much for me.  It brings me tears that someone can be that unselfish.  I know that is what Mom's do.  But Know that I feel better with each day and I have my family to Thank for that.  Especially my Mom!  For her unselfishness and unwavering love!  I love you Mom!  And Thank you for being such a wonderfully beautiful, unselfish woman.  I am so proud to call you My Mom!  <3 <3 <3